It has been and continues to be a hard month for me this month. Father's Day is fast approaching and well, he isn't a father yet. We are also going to be without Dad (FIL) this Sunday. It will be strange not calling and not hearig his voice.
It comes in waves, my heart and body aching so very much for the missing child(ren) in our lives. I am glad that hubbyman is away right now with the boys so I can just sit and listen to my thoughts as I spend time in the presence of God.
How does anyone with the pain of IF carry on? It is getting harder and harder. If not for my hubbyman and promotion at work that keep me so busy and focused elsewhere, I do not know where I would be. Perhaps in a funny farm. My heart is breaking every ovulation. Every period. Now that I work days, I am seeing so many newborns, pregnant mamas, prams with young ones inside and still my belly is flat.
I hope and pray that God blesses us or better yet, takes away this desire should our dream not come into fruition.
Still trying to believe and remain hope-filled in times of hopelessness. I know it is not that bad...God reminds me to remember Job when I feel the way that I do!
Blessed, even while suffering with PI...
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