Hubbyman is going to have his SA test and blood test and hopefully the IVF Dr we were going to use will call us back and let us know why we are not getting pregnant.
I am sad right now as I know that we will be moving to Ontario next year however I do not want us to miss out on this opportunity to do the IVF or whatever it is that Dr H may suggest that we can get pregnant.
I am frustrated with the fact that we only need about 3 months so that whatever changes hubbyman makes to his body will effect his sperm positively. However what if we do that and nothing still happens? I mean it will be 5 years this Nov since we started trying and still nothing. The big factor for us is that we both work at WalMart and do not earn that much. To do this would really mean a huge sacrifice. What if it doesn't work? I am just going on and on. I am just so sad right now. I am thinking about applying somewhere else soon in order to get more money saved. Nights are getting on my nerves anyways and the physical aspect of this job is really effecting my body I am noticing, more and more :( There are so many that I know who are getting ready to start cycling when I thought I would be in the middle of having some serious money saved by now and well we did not foresee the illness that struck Dad and made hubbyman leave and go back East for 5 weeks and creating a huge dent on our baby fund. I am just sad as I know that this may be it for us. I am turning 41 in Nov and want a baby NOW!!!!!!
My heart is breaking...yet again.
When LORD, when? Will we ever hold our own baby?
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