We went to the hospital to try and get hubbyman's SA and bloodwork and was not successful since we do not have a family Dr. So, first thing Monday morning we are going to rectify that and try and get his tests done with our Dr's approval so that Dr H can get some info about what is going on with his SA and blood.
While on the way to the hospital I had a bit of a meltdown and wept. Hubbyman unsure about the direction he is going in since the diagnosis with his father and wanting to go back to Ontario so we can be closer to them has now decided that he is unsure about that now. So he stated that since I am all about wanting us to grow our family and he is too that we should go ahead with IVF and then onto bigger and perhaps better things as we consider what God has in store for us and how this may mean a big move. Anyway I do not want to get into that here without praying and seeking God about it more.
For now we are hoping to do this IVF cycle in the Autumn and then from there we shall see. We are banking on this one time and should it fail we shall gather our eggs and see where we shall lay them as to speak.
I am so hopeful right now that I could pop! I feel more peace and quiet happiness within when just a couple of days ago my heart and body was quite weary. I love it when I know the first place I should go is to Him, my God and instead I usually run straight to the freezer for that scoop (or 2!) of ice cream. Anyways thankfully my vices in food are not too great that they have a significant effect upon me however, I am hoping that I will continue on the healthy eating and juicing path that I was on when hubbyman was back East with his parents.
For now I am taking each day as it comes and trying my best to see the good in it all and hope to God that perhaps this year we WILL be pregnant before 2011!!!
Blessings.
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